Well I'm off to ny to visit my sister and her kids and hopefully my ex. Why do I still love her? Its been 14 years since we meet and get together every so often. We could never get the timing right. This is the first time we are both single.  To tell the truth I want her back and spend my life with her. I was so young when I met her I didn't know what I wanted then. Now I do but it may be to late.... Who knows stranger things have happened.

I hate this. I'm stuck in my damn apartment 'cause I broke my damn kneecap. Just before I was supposed to go to nyc. But the painkillers are nice though...:) 
I need a girlfriend! Its been so long since I even kissed another girl. I'm not sure I remember how to do it.  Anyway I'm tired and haven't slept yet.